Found what ive spent my life searching for and much more.

I have spent the last portion of my life endlessly searching for something that was always right in front of me, but i was to blind to see it. Id become so lost. Id feel so alone, even if i happened to be in a large crowd of people. Nothing ever felt right. I never felt at home. Anger and sorrow was all i felt. Searching for something that didnt need to be found. To find out that the second i stopped searching, it slapped me right in the face. As cliche as it might sound, it was my self. I found who i am. Not the person society told me i was, not the person i tried to be because that was who everyone around me was, but MeNo longer caring what another soul thinks about me, or how i dress. My personality is unique and it is mine alone. I am no longer trying to be someone i am not. But that was only the start. Not only did i find who i truly am, but someone whom i planned to spend the rest of my life on this earth. I have done nothing but a portion of my life spinning in what seemed like an never ending whirl win. Hopelessly seeking someone to fill the void in my soul that i created. For a short time, that void had been filled. I assumed it was love, countless times i would find someone who would take away the discomfort of being alone. I no realize that was not love. I was still sad and alone. Hoping i would find someone to fill the void, i continued to put myself out there waiting for someone to come in and make me feel complete. But no matter how hard i tried, love remained absent. Over the years of slowly giving up that i would ever fill the void within my soul, or find love. But i began to realize roughly two years ago, that i need to stop searching for something that will never be found, because my entire life it has always been right in front of me. Once i began to realize theres nothing i am searching for, i let go. As soon as that happened i began one with myself. I found myself and decided to let everything go. The second i found who i truly am i no longer had a void that i felt needed to be filled. I no longer wanted to go out and look for love. I decided to let it all come to me when it was ready. I let myself go and let myself love as well as be loved. Love found me shortly after, and i have not been happier. 

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Draw a map. Make a path. Take a breath. And RUN.

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And all at once it became clear to me.

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